Is your birthday a big deal?

My birthday is next week.. no big deal to me. Birthdays were never made into a big deal when I was growing up. I remember a few birthday party's but I remember Christmas being a much bigger deal. Bigger presents, bigger party.. ect. Guess that is why I love Christmas so much. But now that I am an adult Christmas for me is not a day. It's a whole season, it's a feeling in my heart. That's what I love! But in Mike's family Birthdays were a much bigger deal.. and I tend to agree with that now that I have my own children. When their birthday's roll around I get all excited. This is a day to celebrate! The day that brought my children into this world whether I was birthing them or not it is still so special to me. I will always make a big deal about it even when they are grown. Mike makes a big deal about my birthday. He gives me a whole weekend. Whichever weekend is closer to my actual birthday is my birthday weekend and of course I get the actual day too. I get breakfast in bed, special coffee's, he usually takes the kids out to give me time at home alone. He wants my dinner to be perfect, he wants me to have the best cake. I know if we had more money he would buy me the biggest gifts. So why I wonder, do I not make a big deal out of my own birthday. Why do I not celebrate the day of my birth like I do that of others. This year I am trying to change the way I think about myself and since my birthday is coming up I plan to get excited about it. I am going to celebrate my own birthday :)